why are ya'll picking on me?
I reach out, clinging through wifi to closeness with friends
I'm trying to offer, generosity to my peers
some of it stems from self-consciousness
fear that I don't offer anything
that new ones are better, smarter than me
I paint the narrative I am left out.
But I know, believe, remind
my worth is not at stake.
I am here
I can lean into being held
there's a joy at deep soul spaces
a ruface distance
or is it reverse?
There's a purity,
and, want for passion
Grief with Krister, though I remain
rooted/anchored in wisdom
And I wonder,
how much do i fall in love
what could life partner love feel like?
i see much nuance in my soul to sift.
sift me, God.
let today, Saida and celebration
forming and filming
discussing and discerning
let me see you, God.
I think that maybe all I ask.